what the **** is going on here

so ya completely out of it. no money college student, dont know if im gonna make rent bill are comming due 3 major assignments used to complicate my life more are due so close to the end of school but knowing im not going to graduate. im completely lost with how to feel i just dont know what to do with my time anymore i think doing what someone else wants is the better choice because it makes them happy but when I want to do something it just make things even more complicated I dont know what to do anymore. GAME OVER